I am Lt. Will Harries and I recently returned from Afghanistan were I was wounded.
I feel different because there are not many people I know for a start that have been shot or have been wounded. The first time I found myself in a fire fight I was very excited and I had the adrenalin running through me and I felt very elated and afterwards I still had that elation.
When the fighting was heaviest I remember thinking on the first day I don't want to die. When the new rounds were kicking up around my head and on the fourth day I remember thinking well I probably am going to die.
We were clearing a village of Taliban and I had already done probably two or three assaults on various buildings that had Taliban in them.
On the fourth one I had taken the Afghan platoon commander up to have a look at the place we were attacking. And when I was with him I stood up to point it out to him and that's when I was shot.
It was just an intense pressure wave that had gone through my thigh and I thought I might lose my leg. And I was quite worried about that until I'd actually woken up in the hospital and realised I had still had it.
My injuries have healed up and any scars that I have got are under my clothes, so they're on my legs.
So although I feel quite different because I was wounded these differences are all pretty now mainly internal.
The feelings you get from being in that environment are mostly sort of chemical.
The adrenalin and endorphins and being in a life and death situation and the fear. Those are the things that I miss and can't replicate.
If I have lost out or if has been an ill effect it's probably the feelings I have got from those experiences are in a way slightly additive. I think it is one of the things that has changed me and also one of those things that I can't really relate to my friends and family.
Because I know how it comes across and I know it is quite selfish and I know that the consequences could be quite selfish as well.
You know I could go back and do two or three months and in that time maybe be in that environment again and experience those feelings.
It's quite tempting but at the same time having being shot I know that the price of having that level of excitement is that you can get hurt.
And next time I could be killed.
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